Off and Running

Dawn Davenport


Adoption Documetary

PBS is showing three documentaries about adoption this month.

The PBS show Point of View is showcasing three adoption themed documentaries for the first three Mondays in September.  Last night they aired Off and Running by Nicole Opper.  WOW—what a film!!  I loved it.

The film follows Avery Klein-Cloud through her last years of high school.  Avery, who is African American, was adopted as a baby by a white single mom, Travis Cloud.   When Avery was a toddler, her mom met Tovah Klein who had an adopted biracial (black/Puerto Rican) son, Rafi, a year older than Avery.  Travis and Tovah fell in love and move in together, eventually adopting a Korean boy, Zay-Zay.  At the beginning, the film portrays a close loving family.  The children are talented (Rafi is going to Princeton and Avery is a star track athlete) and involved with their moms and each other.  The Klein-Clouds are observant Jews and are connected to their extended family and faith community.  It’s a portrait of a wonderfully functional, if not typical, family.

Avery has recently switched from a mostly white school to an all black high school.  At roughly the same time she initiates contact with her biological mother in Texas.  Up until this point, her adoption has been totally closed with no contact and very little information about her birth family.  She writes a letter to the adoption agency that facilitated the adoption asking for information.  The agency sends some basic information, including the name her first mother gave her—Mycole Antwonisha.  They agree to pass letters along to her biological mother.

Avery writes her birth mother saying among other things that she is trying to find out who she (Avery) is.  Her birth mom writes back and says that she is the person her parents raised her to be.  Thus starts one of the sub-themes of the movie—nature versus nurture.  Avery clearly thinks she needs to understand her biological roots to understand who she is.  Her birth mother and her brother, Rafi, think that the environment and your will determine more of who you are.  Rafi says at one point, “I feel like I can create what I want to be.  Avery feels like she was born into it.”  Interestingly, Avery’s mothers seem to understand that our identity is a blend of many things, including our genes, our environment, and our temperament.  (I must recommend a show we did on Nature vs. Nurture: Which Trumps in Parenting. I think it is one of our best.)  When Avery says she want to contact her birth mother to help her discover her identity, Tovah replies, “You are my daughter, your grandparent’s grandchild, your brothers’ sister, and your biological parents child.”

After a few letters, the birth mother stops writing back.  She said she had to tell her other children (3 older sons and a younger daughter) about Avery’s existence.  Travis speculates that Avery’s letters demand too much deep emotional information too soon.  She wisely counsels that Avery tone down her demands and focus on establishing a relationship.  “You need to start with more trivial things, but the problem is, you don’t do trivial.”

It is at this point that Avery’s life begins to unravel and ultimately ends up with her running away and living apart from her family for most of her last year in high school.  As her struggles, she causes intense pain to those who love her—her parents and her brothers.  The filmmaker implies that Avery’s implosion is caused by the rejection she feels when her birth mother does not write back.  Although I’m sure that is part of it, I suspect that much more is involved.

Avery is also coming to terms with being black.  When a counselor at the end of the movie asks her if she feels black, she replies, “I don’t know what that means.”  She makes African American friends who try to teach her what it means to be black in America.  Avery decides that to be black means she has to reject her white family.  “I am beginning to identify with the African American part of me, and my parents don’t fit into that part.”  Although her new black friends tease her gently about being an “Oreo” (black on the outside, white on the inside) they seem to accept who she is better than Avery does.  The film captured beautifully the struggle of some transracial adoptees to find their racial identity.  Avery says it well, “When you are raised by white parents, you see the world differently.  You feel out of place around black people.”

This film raises so many interesting issues.  It could be seen as a cautionary tale for transracial adoption.  Here is one transracial adoptee that is clearly suffering.  I know that plenty of adoptive parents will be trying to separate how they are raising their children from how the Klein-Cloud family raised their children.  “I live in a more diverse neighborhood, my kids go to a racially diverse elementary school, etc.”  As if we can inoculate ourselves and our children from the struggle by following an established script.  As a transracial adoptive mom, I wish it were that easy.  I think the established script helps.  I think most important is having friends and associates of all races to expose our kids to role models of all races.  But for all we know, the Klein-Clouds did this.  I think that the reality is that some transracially adopted kids will just have to struggle to figure out their racial identity.  Parental love and good intentions can’t protect our kids from all pain.

However, one of the things I loved best about this movie is that it clearly showed the diversity found amongst adoptees.  One of my pet peeves is people making generic statement about all adoptees.  I see this all the time, and so-called experts are often the worst offenders.  “All transracially adopted kids will have confused racial identities.”  “All adopted kids will want to search for their biological families.”  “All adopted kids will have trouble as teens.”  It drives me nuts.  Avery and Rafi were both adopted transracially and were raised in the same family.  Avery spins out of control; Rafi does not.  Yes, Avery looks full African American, while Rafi is biracial, but I doubt that fact alone accounts for the difference.  Adoptees, like all people, have different temperaments and different needs.  No blanket statement can cover them all.

Off and Running also calls into question the practice of closed adoptions.  My heart ached for Avery.  Her desire for information about her biological parents is palpable.  I know all too well, that open adoptions are not all perfect and birth parents can disappoint even in an open adoption, but at least an avenue is established for information to be available.  Given Avery’s personality, that may not have been enough, but I couldn’t help but wonder if regular communication between Avery’s mothers, birth mother, and Avery could have eased some of Avery’s angst.

I loved that this was not a movie about lesbian parents.  Avery deals with her parents’ sexual orientation in a matter-of-fact upfront way.  When one of her new friends admitted that he was shocked at first, she teasingly tells him that he can take his butt out the front door if that’s going to be a problem.  This is a story about a loving family in crisis—with emphasis on the word “family”-no descriptive adjective necessary.  The sexual orientation of the parents is for the most part a non-issue.

I have two criticisms of this film.  I was frustrated by the lack of exploration as to why a seemingly functional family fell apart so dramatically.  The filmmaker does not challenge Avery’s statement that her relationship with her parents fell apart because they were hurt when she decided to contact her birth mother, although early scenes with her family contradict this assumption.  I know from personal experience that parents can talk a good line and but still feel deeply uncomfortable (been there, done that, have the t-shirt to prove it), but it seems far more likely to my practiced parental eye that the real struggles between Avery and her parents were over Avery’s poor choices and desire for unfettered freedom.  I think the film would be more nuanced and more realistic if some of this had been included.

My second criticism is more significant.  How much did the film and presence of a film crew influence the trajectory of Avery’s life?  The documentary depended on conflict and drama, and Avery provided plenty of both.  I don’t doubt that her confusion and struggle was real, but was it exaggerated and possibly even egged on unconsciously by talking about it with the screen writer?  Avery is credited as a co-writer with Opper of this documentary, so was likely intimately involved with developing the story.  Did the needs of the story dictate her actions?

Also, where were the adults in this child’s life trying to provide guidance during this phase?  Yes, sometimes parents can’t provide this guidance, but there were others in Avery’s life that could have stepped in, including Opper, who acknowledges in later interviews that she knew Avery for 10 years and was her mentor.  Avery’s rebellion was not a minor one.  She ran away and lived away from her family for more than half a year (the film did not say if she ever moved back home).  She got pregnant and terminated the pregnancy.  She stopped going to school.  Although not explored in the film, I suspect she made other potentially destructive choices while without adult guidance and supervision.  Where were her teachers, religious leaders, coaches?

Opper, a single young woman who hopes to adopt one day, said in a recent interview that young people need to be listened to without judgment and need the space to figure things out for themselves.  Spoken like a true non parent.  As a parent and as someone who has worked with adolescents for the last 15 years, I respectfully disagree.  Teens need adults in their lives to guide them and sometimes even to protect them from themselves.  We have lived longer and should have acquired more information on how to live.  It is our obligation to try to share this information.  Judgment is not necessarily a dirty word.

I strongly recommend that all parents, especially adoptive parents, watch this documentary.  It is available online until Dec. 7.  Hey, why not considering adding it to your film library by buying it for $25.  If you have Netflix, you can watch it on your computer or on your TV thru your Wii for free through their instant streaming.  Today, Wednesday, Sept. 8 at 2:00 Eastern time, Avery and Nicole Opper, will be participating in a live chat at the PBS site.  You can participate today or read the transcript later.

Image credit: Steve Woolf

08/09/2010 | by Dawn Davenport | Categories: Adoption, Adoption Blog, Blog | 21 Comments

21 Responses to Off and Running

  1. Avatar SB says:

    This was such a difficult film to watch. Aside from my feelings of disappointment for Avery herself and her entire family, seeing Avery self-destruct brought so many of my parenting fears to the forefront of my mind.

    Like you, I wonder how much of her journey was influenced by the film itself, the fact that she switched from an all-white school to an all-black school (which seemed to really throw her into a journey of self-discovery in some sense), that her brother headed out to college, and finally by the fact that her birth mother did, in fact, seem to reject her again by ceasing to respond to Avery’s letters (just as she feared would happen). So much for a young woman to endure. I hope her family is able to reconnect after all of this.

    • Avatar Dawn says:

      I hope so too!! From my experience interviewing many families and many experts, usually families that have established a tight bond, such as the Klein-Cloud family, are able to withstand the winds of adolescence and come out on the other side intact.

  2. Avatar Sherrie Eldridge says:

    Thanks for sharing this info, Dawn!

  3. Avatar Laura Jean says:

    I agree that adoptive parents do have a hard time understanding what they go through. Many parents seem to know that is it hard but do not understand it, they can't relate and don't know what to do about it that is really helpful. You can know something but without having experienced it it's hard to internalize it. I think you see this in the end of Wo Ai Ni the parents know in theory it's hard in particular for their older daughter and they seem willing to do whatever needs to be done. I think it's more challenging when you are different races because kids are programmed by thousands of years of biology to be looking for how they fit especially in their teens.

  4. Avatar Brenda Bielke says:

    I haven't read the negative comments you received, but I think sometimes adoptive parents have a hard time seeing the reality that SOME kids go through. I am both an adoptee and an adoptive mom (transracially), and the whole thing is complex when combined with adolescence and the search for identity. While I'm the same race as my adoptive parents, adolescence was difficult and confusing and painful; add another layer of difference, and it can be that much more difficult.Bio kids go through periods of estrangements from their parents quite often too–it's not unique to adoptees, but each person's experience is their own.

  5. Avatar Dawn Davenport says:

    We also got a lot of negative comments on our site. What did you think of Off and Running? If you have a comment, please post it in the comment section of the blog.

  6. Avatar Laura Jean says:

    I watached the first one Wo Ai Ni and really liked it. I was surprised by all of the negative comments on the PBS site.

  7. Avatar Issie says:

    Great site…great review. keep up the good work.

  8. Avatar Chris says:

    Another thing that made me sad….Avery said she had the abortion because she could not imagine placing a child for adoption.

  9. Avatar Chris says:

    I was finally able to watch this through on Saturday. I am the mother of an African-American daughter, 15 months old. We have an open adoption although the birth mom has not had contact with the agency at all. So, it will more than likely involve helping my daughter track down her birth mom in the event she wants to know her/meet her/ask questions. I am doing what I can to create a family environment, church environment, social environment that addresses her heritage. I think I am covered and of course will not be perfect!! My concerns for contacting her birth mom were played out in this movie like it has i my mind. What if her birth mom rejects her? I will be heart broken for my daughter.

    On the other hand, Avery goes full force at everything and frankly I think she created some of the drama. It also goes to show you that children raised in the same family can have such different approaches to life. Rafi could not have been more different!!

    All in all, the film tells the story we parents in Transracial adoptions should be aware of as our children grow and experience the world. We can’t make it perfect but we need to be aware to do what we can and not isolate our children from their heritage from as early as possible.

  10. Avatar jkl says:

    Of course, it’s always in the most obvious spot. I need more coffee! Thanks for your consideration!

  11. Avatar jkl says:

    Hi Dawn. I realize this probably isn’t the right place for this question, but I can’t seem to find the proper e-mail address to send it. I am wondering if there has been a show or blog posting about the impacts of infertility on friendships when someone who’s infertile has a good friend who’s pregnant or ways to deal with it when you suspect a friend is pregnant but they haven’t told you yet. It’s such a difficult situation when it’s all you can think about and there doesn’t seem to be a way to stop wondering, etc.

    • Avatar Dawn says:

      It’s a great suggestion. We’ve discussed similar situation on other shows, but I don’t remember this exactly. Maybe a show on the etiquette of infertility. Boy, that would be a loaded show! It is so hard for both fertile and infertile to know the “right” way to handle many situations such as the one you described. Yes, I’ll consider that. Thanks for the suggestion. By the way, just click on contact at the bottom of the webiste pages and it’ll give you this email address: info @

  12. Avatar Heather says:

    Thank you so much for your review of this.

  13. Avatar keldog says:

    I agree with your review also, Dawn. I wondered several of the same things you did while watching, namely about the guidance that Avery did (and did not) receive during this difficult time. I found it interesting that Avery and her brother went to two different high schools, his largely white and her’s largely African American. It made me wonder if some of her desperation to try to contact and build a relationship with her birth mother derived from her admitted inability to fit in with other African American kids her age and the culture in general. This certainly is not a judgment on her parents…I would have probably made the same call. Watching the show, my heart broke for her several times…I wish that there was more information available on how she is doing today. I hope they are all doing well.

  14. Avatar abcd says:

    Do you know of any way of viewing these films in Canada? I went to view it online, but it won’t play due to my location (can only be seen in the US).

    • Avatar Dawn says:

      Well Rats! This one, Off and Running, is also available on Netflix, either as a DVD that is mailed to you or to be instantly viewed through your computer or your Wii. I believe you can even sign up for a free Netflix trial. Does anyone else have a suggestion?

  15. Avatar Joanna says:

    I stayed up late to watch this last night and I’m glad I did…not that it was easy to watch. We’re traveling in two weeks for our Ethiopian court date to adopt a baby girl, and no matter how uncomfortable or painful, it’s an education and will hopefully make me a better parent. I think your comments were spot on. I was left feeling a lot of the same things, but as always, you articulated it very well.

  16. Avatar Pat Johnston says:

    Great review of a great film, Dawn. I agree with your assessments–positive and critical–100%

  17. Avatar Daddy Shawn says:

    Thank you for your insight regarding this documentary! My partner and I are both white gay men and we have a 4yo blended daughter that we adopted at birth. We find ourselves in a sense of panic when we see stories like this one. “Are we’ doing everything we can to print this?” is a question we asked ourselves. Thank you again for your thoughts!

    • Avatar Dawn says:

      Shawn, I think all parents, regardless if we are adoptive parents or gay parents or transracial parents or all of the above, want to be perfect. And by perfect, we mean, parenting is such a way that our children will never feel any pain, never have any angst, and of course, reflect well on us. 🙂 I’ve been at this parenting game for quite a while (I now parent three teens and one beyond) and I’m convinced that perfection is unattainable. I am also convinced that it isn’t necessary. Most kids who come from decent loving involved families turn out OK. They may struggle, but their struggles don’t sink them.

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