The Primal Wound
Have you ever had that experience where all of a sudden one idea or thing keeps popping up in your life? When this happens, I try to pay attention. Lately I seem to be inundated with the people talking about the “primal wound” theory— the idea that “severing the connection between the infant and biological mother [through adoption] causes a primal wound which often manifests in a sense of loss (depression), basic mistrust (anxiety), emotional and/or behavioral problems and difficulties in relationships with significant others… affect[ing] the adoptee’s sense of Self, self-esteem and self-worth throughout life.”
Of course, I’ve read the book The Primal Wound by Nancy Verrier and have known about this theory for many years, but I seemed to hear about it with almost freakish regularity within the last month.
- An adult adoptee asked me, “Why do they (she was specifically referring to other adoptees and adoption professionals) see us basically as damaged goods. Like we’re doomed to have all these problems. Why would anyone want to be viewed like that, like they were injured permanently within days after their birth? Who in their right mind would want to hire, much less marry, someone who is guaranteed to have all these problems. It doesn’t reflect my life or the lives of most of the adoptees I know. It’s b_lls__t!”
- I read Jennifer Lauck’s new memoir Found. This poor woman was literally overwhelmed with life traumas. She was adopted at birth by Bud and Janet. At the time of the adoption, Janet had a fatal illness, but wanted a daughter. Bud was already burdened with a dying wife, a young son, and mounting financial debts. From a very young age, Jennifer felt very different temperamentally from her parents and brother and burdened by the idea that she was in the family to save her mother from death. She learned of her adoption from a taunt by her brother shortly before her mother died when she was seven. Her father died of a heart attack one year later, but not before he married the most wicked stepmother since Cinderella’s. Wicked Stepmother abused Jennifer and her brother until they finally were sent to live with separate relatives. Richard and Peggy adopted the teen-aged Jennifer in order to get her social security payments. Her brother kills himself as a young adult. Oh, and along the way, she was sexually abused a couple of times, starting when she was six. It seemed there were no adults in this child’s life that ever truly cared for her or protected her. It made for a heart breaking read. Needless to say, she grew to be a troubled woman, struggling with a sense of self and unable to form lasting relationships.
- Lauck seeks answers and healing in many ways, including marriages, near fanatical devotion to various spiritual pursuits, and parenthood. Ultimately, she found the primal wound theory, and concluded that her lifelong inability to form relationships and lack of self-worth were due to her original separation from her birth mother. “Infants are unable to regulate their own emotions; they need their mother’s response to their cries to teach them mood normalization. And the infant doesn’t wait for any mother, she waits for her birth mother—the one with which she shared a hormonal connection while in utero. Any other caregiver is rejected.”While I’m happy that she found some answers, and she certainly would know better than anyone else what has helped her heal, from an outside observer it would seem that the lack of any parental figure in her life, to say nothing of the abuse, would have caused more damage than the lack of a biological connection to a mother.
- A good friend calls me to ask if I’ve heard of the book The Primal Wound. A new therapist had recommended that she read the book in order to understand her 19 year old daughter adopted from foster care at age 9 after having been removed from her birth family due to years of neglect and abuse. While I’m all in favor of reading and learning as much as possible and clearly the removal from a mother, even a neglectful and abusive one, at age six causes a lasting wound, The Primal Wound seemed an unusual book to suggest first. I wondered if the therapist saw the word “adopted” in the record and automatically thought “primal wound”. In this case, it would seem that the primal wound would pail by comparison to all the wounds caused by years of abuse and neglect.
I came across a discussion on the Linked In Adoption Group about a new study out of Yale comparing the DNA of children raised in orphanages with the DNA of children raised by biological parents, which found a difference in the actual DNA of the two groups.* While we’ve known that children raised in institutions behave and learn differently than children raised in families, it’s pretty amazing to think that orphanage care could change the fundamental building block of human existence. That alone was interesting, but what really caught my eye was one of the first comments. **
Studies of this nature are “game changers” and provides proof of what adoptees have already known for years. This study establishes that premature separation from the natural mother alters the genetic fabric of a child.
What?!? That wasn’t even close to my understanding of what this study found, but the above commenter implied he had read the full study, so my interest was piqued enough to shell out the money to order my own copy. If indeed this study found biological “proof” that adopted children are damaged to the very core of their cells by being raised by a mother without genetic connection, I certainly needed to know.
The study was indeed fascinating,**but in no way provided the Holy Grail of a primal wound. The focus of this study was children raised in institutional care. A comparison control group was needed, and researchers chose children from the same region raised by their biological families. In order to prove the existence of a primal wound to the DNA by being separated from a biological mother and raised by an adopted mother, researchers would need another group of children who had been abandoned at birth but immediately placed in permanent adoptive families. This was beyond the scope of this study. The study only mentioned adoption once: “Adoptive placement in itself appears to represent a significant intervention with regard to physical and cognitive development catch-up [of children raised in orphanages].”
The whole primal wound argument has always seemed too simplistic to me. Humans are complex beings—there are few direct line, single factor causes and effects, especially in human psychology. How a person reacts to any big life event depends on many, probably hundreds, of factors. And we all have our own potentially big life events: for some it’s adoption, for others it’s a depressed mother, or a single mother living paycheck to paycheck, or the death of a parent, or an alcoholic father, or a divorce, or parents who constantly fight. For most of us, our lives are a mix of positive and negative big events. How we respond to each, and which one leaves an everlasting imprint is individual.
I remember a late night gab session my first year at college. A group of about eight girls were talking, and as often happens with 18 and 19 year olds, our conversation eventually turned to complaining about our parents and life. What strikes me now is that we all carried our own individual burden. For one, it was her parent’s bitter divorce where she felt like a pawn in their ongoing fight. For another it was the tragic death of her beloved older brother. Interestingly, she and her brother were adopted, but that wasn’t her “big” life event, or at least it wasn’t in comparison to her brother’s death. Another girl admitted that her father drank too much and too often. Another was raised by her grandparents whom she adored, but who were now in ill health. Another was a very different person from her parents, and she always felt like an outsider in her family. There were eight different stories; eight different negative big life events. (What should have struck me then was how petty my own burdens were in comparison, but it would take a few years for that realization to set in.)
I’ve wondered if the attraction of theories that say adoption is irrevocably damaging to adoptees is an attempt to counterbalance the years where the professional adoption community preached that adoption was no big event. Just ignore it; raise them as if they were born to you; no need to even tell the child; seal up the original birth records to further the pretense. This minimization of the inherent loss in adoption minimizes the pain that some adoptees feel, and there is nothing worse than having your pain minimized. Adoptees that felt the loss in adoption were often made to feel that they were ungrateful and that there was something wrong with them. Of course adoption is a big life event for both the child, and the first parents (and grandparents), and the adoptive parents. It is neither inherently negative nor positive—in the vast majority of cases it’s a mix of both.
I have no doubt that some adopted persons are badly wounded by the very fact that they were relinquished by their biological families. They deserve to have their pain recognized, and the adoption system needs to address ways to lessen the potential for this wound. Open adoption is a step in the right direction, as are opening sealed records. More effort to provide alternatives for families to stay together is another important step.
It’s important, however, to also recognize that many adopted person do not carry this “primal wound”, or if they are wounded the cut doesn’t go so deep. Who is and who is not maimed is likely dependent on temperament, how soon the child is adopted, life experiences, specifics of their adopted families, and a host of other factors that we may never know. Adoptees are a wonderfully diverse group. They deserve better than any automatic label.
* “Differential patterns of whole-genome DNA methylation in institutionalized children and children raised by their biological parents“. Oksana Naumova, et al. Published in Development and Psychopathology.) The original poster was lamenting that research results seldom spread to the “real world”—those of us who are in the midst of living and loving children through adoption or are working with families in this position. (I share her concern and that’s one of the reasons Creating a Family has an Adoption Research page where we include a discussion of the above study.)
** Not all adoptees that commented shared this opinion. One adult adoptee who is also a therapist said: “I oppose the self-defined victimization of adoptees, and I have challenged them openly about it. I took a lot of abuse for saying they are dramatized not traumatized.”
***I thought it was particularly interesting that the orphanages in study were chosen because of the “high quality” of care. “They were well equipped, had an adequate ratio of children to adults, had good physical plant facilities, and demonstrated adequate administrative leadership.” I also found it interesting that researchers believe that the changes in DNA are heritable, thus the children of these children may also carry some of the scars of institutionalization. It should also be noted that this was a very small study involving only 14 children in each group.
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